December 2009
“A person should go out on the water on a fine day to a small distance from a...”
– ~Augustus William Hare and Julius Charles Hare, Guesses at Truth, by Two Brothers, 1827
my mom wonders how can I live with myself after what I’ve done? Well guess what? I hate myself right now. I am becoming depressed. Fuck. I screwed up. Yes I’m alive but not living how I should be. Now what am I going to do?
dampen
I’m not really sure why I am the way I am but it doesn’t help me at all. I can’t get my shit together and work really hard. I have failed again. Last time I made up for my failure but this time it’s not going to be that easy. I don’t know what I’m doing. I think I’m happy, at least I make my mind up to be happy but then I get down again. My emotions...
There’s nothing you can do now that will make God love you more, and there’s nothing you can do now that will make God love you less.
let’s do some living after we die
If you only knew I’m hanging by a thread The web I spin for you If you only knew I’d sacrifice my beating Heart before I lose you I still hold onto the letters You returned I swear I’ve lived and learned It’s 4:03 and I can’t sleep Without you next to me I Toss and turn like the sea If I drown tonight, bring me Back to life Breathe your breath in me The only thing...
if breathing’s the error, it’s the simplest correction
were the whole realm of nature mine
that were an offering too small
love so amazing, so divine
demands my soul, my life, my all
ambidexterity
I think I wanna try to become ambidextrous. Over break, I think I’m gonna practice writing with my left hand and see if it gets any better. Because ambidexterity is cool. :)
Breathing.
I keep remembering everyday how much I love Needtobreathe. They are without a doubt my favorite band and I’m always listening to them. I just love them so much. Won’t ever change.
Is it just wishful thinking?
I wish people would stop being so mean. Some of my friends can be mean, really mean. And yes, sometimes I am mean but I feel guilty. Talking about people consistently though and making up things about them just makes me angry. The other night at dinner at Chili’s a couple of my friends were being rude about the waitress. Not to her but when she was gone they’d be talking again....
Brett Dennen
is becoming one of my favorites. His voice is so unique and chill. And…he’s a ginger. So there’s some brownie points haha. Yes, I like gingers a lot. Definitely my favorite hair color. Anyway check out Brett Dennen if you haven’t yet.
www.myspace.com/brettdennen
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